Be quiet, I’m eating.

Be quiet, I just got in.

Be quiet, I am watching the news.

Be quiet, I am thinking.

Be quiet, you’re disturbing me.

Be quiet, go to your room.

Be quiet, I’m working.

Talk to your mother

Talk to your father

Don’t speak until you’re spoken to.

You’re too loud.

You’re too quiet.

Speak up.

Stop making a noise.

Stop talking, you’re annoying.

Stop talking, no one’s interested.

Stop talking, you’re too weird.

Stop talking, no one cares.

Stop talking, you don’t deserve an opinion.

Stop talking, no one likes you.

Stop talking, you’re interrupting.

Stop talking, you’re in the way.

Don’t talk to me.

Don’t talk to them.

No one’s listening to you.

You’re too loud.

You’re too quiet.

Speak up.

Stop making a noise.

Don’t Speak is a poem taken from LJ Bremer’s upcoming book: Chapters in Hell.

Original article: Don’t Speak.

From the Lights is inspired by a translation of The Lord’s Prayer from Aramaic to English and the Beatitudes of Middle Eastern mysticism taken from Prayers of the Cosmos by Neil Douglas-Klotz; whilst also combining elements of spiritual affirmations for deliverance and protection. From the Light is the conlcuding song of Void of Course and a choice to remain within the light ✟

Prayer for a miracle:

I am here,
I ask You to do what only You can do in my life and in my current situation.
Nothing is too small or too big;
You are, after all, the one Who performs miracles.
I humbly come before you to ask that You would do a miracle in me…

(speak your intention here)

Heal me through and through,
Help me in my relationships;
Assist me in my decisions.
Close the wrong doors;
and open all the right ones.

Protect me from all evil.

Original article: From the Light.

What are the 6 rare experiences of twin flame connection?

Clairvoyance

Clairvoyance is a generic term for multiple clair senses which form the basis of extra sensory perception. These extra senses allow for telepathy between people, a preternatural awareness of objects or events unknown to yourself or to others, and knowledge of future events.

However the knowledge presents itself within your mind, it is separate from external influence such as a song you haven’t heard in decades coming to mind, specific instructions: you might be driving and you have a sudden thought to take a different route, Maybe it’s the perfume of someone deceased or the favourite food of your best friend.

Clairvoyance – receiving information through visions
Claircognisance – knowing something intuitively
Clairaudience – hearing information such as guidance or music
Clairalience – Smelling odours that are not in your physical environment
Clairgustance – tasting something that you haven’t consumed
Clairtangency –touch an object such as a photo or heirloom and receiving information
Clairsentience – receiving information through a feeling within the body

Usually people will have one or two clair senses without realising it. When it comes to twin flames, they will usually have most if not all of the clair senses operating more intensely and undoubtedly connected to their counterpart.

Quite often when twin flames are connected by extra sensory perception alone, that is they’re not together in the physical world, these clair senses are much stronger and clearer. This functions in the same way physical sensory deprivation can sharpen remaining physical senses.

Telepathy

Telepathy amongst twin flames occurs naturally and utilises all of the clair senses in varying degrees for thought transference to occur. It is also likely to be the biggest challenge twin flames face especially if they are unable to communicate with their counterpart and validate their experiences in real time.

You may smell or taste what their eating and drinking, feel what they’re feeling physically or emotionally, or you may hear what they’re listening to – or whatever earworm is lodged in their mind.

How telepathy occurs is unique to each individual. It may be based purely on exchanging sensory information without context which can be perplexing, and often how telepathy between twin flames begins: a feeling thought or sense that you know wasn’t your own. It may also be as detailed as having internal conversations going constantly: that sudden waft of pizza smell makes sense as they told you that was their dinner.

Even when twin flames have accepted telepathy as part of their daily lives it can still come challenges.

Sometimes the thought transference happens out of synch. This is a challenge faced by twin flames that have some communication to their counterpart. A conversation had at 1pm in one mind may have occurred at 4am the previous day in the other mind. The time differences can inadvertently lead to twin flames doubting their connection altogether.

There are also times when the connection comes through from their higher self, and those conversations seldom marry up to real time events.

Even so, the deep knowing that comes with twin flame telepathy usually leads to the transference of thoughts to undoubtedly validate itself in some way in time.

Dreams

Twin flame dreams are noticeably unique to other dreams such as those with simple symbology as the mind processes the previous day.

In twin flame dreams, you’ll often meet with them over many years or decades before knowing who they are in the physical world. You’ll get to know their face and appearance through these dreams first, and most likely a great deal more about them too.

When you do know the identity of your twin flame in the waking world, these dreams often intensify and you begin experiencing an energetic relationship with them – one that is deeply profound and sacred, and with a love so powerful and unconditionally deep, you just know that the connection you live through in dreams is more than a fantasy or imagined creation.

It is essential to keep a dream journal with those dreams as you’ll often work through things that make little sense in the present moment, and quite often there’s an entire narrative of experience being provided by both of your higher selves pertaining to your connection in this lifetime which again only begins to make sense when pieced together much later like different coloured threads coming together in a tapestry.

These are dreams that often can’t be figured out by looking into a dream dictionary to translate symbols as any symbology that appears in the dreamworld carries individual meaning specifically to you or your twin flame. They are an extension of telepathy, usually incredibly clear and tangible and with you becoming lucid within the dream.

Feeling Their Presence

This is quite literally feeling them even if only for a brief moment. Perhaps it’s as though you’re hands touch, or that they placed a reassuring hand on you in a moment of stress or anxiety.

Sometimes during periods of rest or meditation, you may feel their presence against you for much longer periods as though they were sitting or lying right next to you. This sensation can be especially potent either side of sleeping, and in particular if you have just woken from a dream with them.

You feel the warmth of them next to you, a firm pressure upon your body as though they are physically present with you. It’s a feeling far stronger than that of spirit and energy touching you. It’s as though for a brief moment the boundaries between your reality and theirs’s disappeared.

Visions of their reality: Seeing Through Their Eyes

This is one of the more unsettling experiences that come with the twin flame connection: being able to see what they’re seeing. This ability comes from a combination of clair senses working together in real time with your twin flame who is eternally connected to you.

One moment you’re going about your day. Maybe you’re on a leisurely walk, maybe working out, or listening to music – whatever it is that gets you in the zone – then, suddenly, you’re seeing something else entirely. You’re literally looking through their eyes and seeing their world.

This is something I haven’t come across in anyone else who’s had this experience, so I’m really not sure how advanced seeing through their eyes can get. When it has happened with myself and my twin flame, I’ve only ever seen a few seconds’ snapshot since it’s so rare even to myself that I’m shocked out of the experience almost immediately.

Seeing them in the mirror

Seeing your twin flame in the mirror is another extremely rare experience I haven’t come across anywhere else.

In one way, seeing your twin flame in a reflection or mirror is a form of catoptromancy, scrying or divination using a mirror, or overshadowing where a spiritual being can manifest its appearance over yours. These techniques usually start with your face blurring and morphing into something else like molten wax – and more often or not will leave your eyes stinging and tearing up from the effort of trying to see the difference face over yours.

The experience I had came about when I was on a metro train in Seoul and while underground, the window functioned as a mirror. As I looked at myself, I first noticed how I was seeing myself completely differently to how I normally perceive myself. Then I noticed my eyes changed to his.

The train went above ground for a bit, and with each bridge or shadow that created the reflective surface, it was like a game of peekaboo with my twin flame. When the train went underground fully again, my appearance was completely changed to theirs – though as I moved they moved. If I winked, they winked.

For several minutes, it was as though they were right in front of me on some kind face-time call situation. Then they leant forwards, booped my head with theirs somehow, and the train came back above ground and the whole experience ended.

The nearest to this experience is with someone I know who, when they were looking at themselves in the mirror, felt their twin flame was somehow looking at them too. Since twin flames are one soul living within two bodies having an individualistic, yet simultaneously shared experience of life, it makes sense that their twin flame was having a vision of their reality as supposed to looking directly at one another like through a window.

These are the rarer experiences of a twin flame connection that also suggest a connection is much deeper than soul mates. It’s difficult to know how rare these experiences are as not much is written about them – trust me, I’ve been searching for over 20 years and only know one person who has shared some similar experiences to me.

There may even be other rare experiences exclusive to twin flames. Those presented here, the clairvoyance, telepathy, dreams, and physical experiences of each other come from my own twin flame experiences that have left me questioning my mind at times.

Have you had any of these rare experiences with your twin flame, or have you experienced something else? Let me know in the comments!

Original article: Twin Flame Talk: 6 Rare Experiences of Twin Flame Connection.

 TWIN FLAME TALK: FACING FEARS

What if the only thing standing between you and your twin flame union is fear?

Fear traps us in survival mode, blocks growth, and prevents connection – not just from connecting with others, but also from connecting with our own self and to the divine source. Every time you act despite fear, you rewire your brain to associate courage with safety. It literally changes your identity. Research shows chronic fear inhibits the prefrontal cortex, the part of your brain responsible for thinking and planning; while over-activating the amygdala, the part of your brain responsible for your fight or flight response. This over time blocks long-term growth.

When you face your fears, you develop emotional resilience and also increase neuroplasticity – the brain’s ability to reorganise itself and form new neural connections during life. Confronting fear also develops something called approach motivation, the drive to engage with something perceived as positive or rewarding. This is essential for love, creativity, and goal pursuit particularly when approach motivation is ingrained as part of subconscious thought.

Being able to dissolve fears is an essential part of personal development and evolution in life. It’s what allows us to progress in all aspects of life: from chasing our dreams and pushing past self-limiting beliefs, to having a much deeper and profound understanding of ourselves and our place within our reality.

When it comes to twin flames, the process of overcoming fear is paramount. The first step of the twin flame journey is of self-discovery and shadow work so that we do not lose ourselves to such an intense connection that supersedes everything else.

It’s facing up to fears that have come from our experiences in life that open up the doors to new chapters of this journey; and which will bring up the greatest challenges to our faith, commitment, and resolve. And why should we walk through the fires of our own hell? Because the answers to our prayers and our dreams are on the other side of our fears.

Fear is a guardian of transformation.
– Hermetic thought

The twin flame journey is a path that straddles realty and the known world, and that of the unknown, mystical spaces. To come into union with your twin flame involves first passing through your own fears and illusions to reach deeper understanding.

Many esoteric teachings share commonalities in that the way to reach deeper union requires passing through personal fears and illusions. In the Bhagavad Gita, a major Hindu script, Arjuna must face his own inner war before uniting with the divine truth of his path. In Sufi mysticism, the path confronts many limitations in stages of letting go of fear, especially the fear of loss, pain, and of not being in control. In the words of Rumi: “Run from what’s comfortable. Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. It is, after all, highly unlikely that you will find your twin flame by staying at home waiting for him.

To meet my twin flame in the real world, I had to do something terrifying. I had to change my entire life
– LJ Bremer

Would you believe me if I said here and now that five years ago I couldn’t even leave my house for all the fears I had? Prior to university, that was my reality. I moved to Wales back in 2016 to create a new start somewhere far from the traumas I endured and survived. I had severe depression, chronic anxiety and agoraphobia, and my voice had been silenced mentally, emotionally, and physically – I seldom interacted with people vocally to the point my voice was barely audible and wavered from the lack of use of my vocal cords.

I had a NDE during the pandemic and promised myself that if I survived, I would never let my fears hold me back again. And so, I felt the fear and did it anyway. I finally applied to go to university and slowly reclaimed my voice and identity through my academic journey and the support around me. That was the catalyst where I finally stepped on to the path that would lead me to my twin flame in this reality and develop a greater understanding of what twin flame connections are. With each step I took, a new revelation of his identity that started in dreams and led me to him in the physical world.

Yet even knowing his energy and having a connection to him my entire life had just been the foundations for what would come: intense shadow work and multiple total transformations of self.

From being unable to leave the house and barely able to speak, I got comfortable being uncomfortable and felt the fear and did the thing. While my twin flame brought up each self-limiting belief and fear I had been paralysed by, I reclaimed my identity and my voice.

As I learnt to trust in him and to our bond, not only did our connection strengthen, but my reality improved. I healed the scars of my past and opened my world, I made friends, travelled solo to south Korea to do research for my dissertation, trusted in our telepathy to co-write my last book which is linked below, read my work at open mic nights, and now face the greatest fear of all for me: of being seen and heard with content now being uplaoed to YouTube.

While my progress may seem small and insignificant to an onlooker, to be able to hit record then share my videos  on YouTube is a miraculous achievement to me. They’re far from perfect, showing my face is terrifying and I still think my voice sounds atrocious. But without that first step, no progress can occur.

It’s not about chasing my twin flame. It’s about becoming someone who could meet him at the right time, in the right place, as an equal.

– LJ Bremer

What does all of that mean? Well, I’m still becoming the person that can meet him at the same level. My time in Wales was that of healing. I had a safe harbour to heal my wounds and untangled the web of deceit and paranoia the world had placed in me, to remember who I was and have faith in myself; to pass through my personal fears and illusions and learn to dissolve fear with love.

Because for all us, no matter how strong the soul connection, I promise you they’re not getting delivered to your door.

Examples of people overcoming fears and self-limiting beliefs before union appear in literature, reality, and mysticism.

In many literary examples of the twin flame concept, you could liken the “quest for union” as the hero’s journey with abyss or dark night always preceding transformation.
– The hero’s journey, Joseph Campbell

There is Jane Eyre who overcame her fears of abandonment and deep trauma and finds strength in solitude before uniting with Rochester. Another example is Arwen in Lord of the Rings had total faith in the love she and Aragorn shared and chose to surrender her immortality for love – overcoming spiritual fear and the pressures of her father who wanted her to go West.

An iconic example of someone overcoming their fears and illusions in reality is Elizabeth Gilbert who left her whole life behind, faced deep inner wounds and found her soulmate in a moment of flow.

Facing fears is often an ongoing progression both in life and with the twin flame journey. To shift in any direction likely involves uncertainty and fear as new or hidden self-limiting beliefs present. The only way to keep advancing is to continue moving; to develop emotional resilience and increased neuroplasticity, and to take a leap of faith, knowing that the path will reveal itself even in the darkest of voids and silence of the unknown.

For me, the best thing to come out of facing my fears and coming into deeper union with my twin flame energetically is how my work has evolved. We bounce ideas around together, play games with our work and place little easter eggs for each other to find, and we co-write things. Sometimes he will give me basic ideas to work from, and other times I channel him.

When I moved to Wales, I took a leap of faith and was given sanctuary, the tools and people I needed to heal, and a return to the self I had lost along the way. While my time here in Wales has been magical and healing, it’s now too small for my journey and for my twin flame connection.

Though moving is terrifying as I will be leaving the first place I have felt safe and met my soul tribe; to stay is to stagnate and decay, and to lose all the progress I have been fighting for these last five years. To meet my twin flame in the real world, I have to once again face the fear and the unknown and change my entire life. I will go where I can be found by destiny.

When you find your twin flame you also find your freedom, for there is nothing more exhilarating, wild, and free than absolute soul love.
— Melody Lee

And so it is for your journey too, especially when seeking union with your twin flame. Wherever your fears may be, it is in facing them that progression and forwards movement can happen. It’s a challenging path where you will be continuously pushed out of your comfort zone, yet if you choose to walk this path, I promise you this: you will find so much more than union with your twin flame, your life will be enriched in countless ways and you will have so much more understanding of who you are.

I hope you enjoyed this brief look into the psychology and spirituality of why facing fears to come into twin flame union is important. What miracles are waiting for you on the other side of that fear?

Original article: Twin Flame Talk: Blocked by Fear?.

What Is a Twin Flame?

It’s one of those phrases that gets tossed around a lot, but behind the mystery there is a deep spiritual truth. A twin flame is often called your mirror soul. They are not just a lover or a soulmate, they are other half of your original soul essence: one soul splitting into two for the experience duality, life, love, growth as two bodies. Twin flame connections often involve intense emotional and energetic connections through:

• Dreams
• shared sensations
• synchronicities
• déjà vu

Signs you’ve met your twin flame:

• instant soul recognition: meeting them feels like coming home
• synchronistic events before, during, and after meeting them
• unexplainable spiritual activation
• inner knowing. You just know they’re the one with unshakable certainty.

Where Did the Idea Come From?

The oldest version of the twin flame myth comes from ancient Greece. In Plato’s Symposium Aristophanes tells a story of humans that who were once whole and powerful beings, and the gods split them in two, and, ever since we’ve been searching for our missing half. Similar ideas appear in Sufi mysticism, the Vedas, and even early Christian and Gnostic texts all describing the soul’s yearning to return to unity.

Modern Origins of the Term “Twin Flame”

The phrase “twin flame” started to appear in spiritual teachings during the 20th century with Theosophists hinting at dual souls. It was the 1970s and ‘80s, through the work of Elizabeth Clare Prophet and the Ascended Master teachings, that the term really took off. It was tied to divine mission, soul evolution, and sacred union.

Twin Flame vs Other Connections

Not all deep soul connections are twin flames:

• Soulmates are your kindred spirits. Familiar, loving, supportive. You can have many.
• Karmic partners are intense but meant for learning. Often short-term.
• False flames feel real but usually exist to push you toward healing and growth. They’re not always romantic either. False flames contracts are as unique as twin flames
• Twin flames? In short: they reflect your light and your shadow so that each of you can expand past limitations and blocks.

 Starseeds and Galactic Missions

Many believe twin flames are starseeds—souls from other star systems who chose to incarnate for Earth’s evolution. They often resonate with Mintaka, Sirius, Andromeda, Pleiades, or somewhere else. Twin flames carry codes for collective awakening, sacred union templates, or creative technology.

What If You’re Not Together?

So what do you do when you’re not with your twin flame in the physical?
You connect in the ether.

• Meditate.
• Dream.
• Write letters.
• Send love through music.
• Heal your own heart—because everything you do to raise your frequency ripples to them.
• Join a spiritual development group and/or forum to connect with others on this journey

The twin flame journey is quantum.
Distance doesn’t apply.

So what is a twin flame?

A twin flame is someone who is both a divine counterpart of your soul seeking reunion as one, and also a unique individual who will serve as a catalyst and teacher to you becoming who you were meant to be.

• They are your divine counterpart
• Your greatest teacher
• Your biggest champion and ally
• The purest form of love

Original article: Twin Flame Talk: What Is A Twin Flame?.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always felt like I was searching for someone. That person was out there…but just out of reach. I had this constant awareness that led me to a lifelong interest in soul mates. It became my reason to write as I tried to make sense of the dreams and presence of him – this soul in my constant awareness that I knew I had to find somehow.

My life has been full of strange dreams and synchronicities, little nudges and signs that always seemed to be leading me somewhere. Eventually, those signs guided me to Wales, where I found my soul tribe and next chapter of life. Everything began to make a little more sense. But twin flames? Still an unwritten mystery.

Then 2020 came around.

In an incredibly vivid and lucid dream, I finally saw him clearly. That person I had always been searching for. And from that moment, the connection between us deepened in ways I never could have imagined.

Since then, it’s been a journey of telepathy, dreaming, astral projection, and shared sensory experiences that defy logic. It’s been a journey of learning to trust what I feel, even when I can’t explain it – or when I think I’m losing my mind. And mostly, it’s been a journey of continual self-improvement and self-mastery; of feeling the fear and doing it anyway.

And the craziest part so far? There’s been a few times when life almost brought us physically together — almost crossing paths through pure chance. Our first almost meeting in particular became my inspiration and muse for my work. So this is the short version of my twin flame story.

I’m here to share our journey so far and what I’ve learned: the beautiful, the dark, the maddening, and the magical; and to create a space where others on this path don’t have to feel alone.

If you want to dive deeper into twin flames or want to know more about my twin flame story, just click If You Want To Know…Just Ask! and check it out on Amazon and KDP

Original article: Twin Flame Talk: My Story.

When I first wrote about twin flames, there was so little to go on. The world new about soul mates but not really about twin flames. At the time, I dropped the subject myself as I only had, what I learnt soon after 2019, was a false flame experience [see Twin Flame Experience?].

Then, one intense cord cutting ritual for the false flame, and one global pandemic and national lockdown induced decision to start university later, I found myself living in a completely different reality and literally dreaming of my twin flame. It was nothing like my false flame.

With my false flame, there was a deep sense of love but no connection whatsoever to them. With my twin flame, there was an immediate sense of knowing he was the one – even though I didn’t know who he was in reality. I knew I loved him. I knew he was the one. I knew he was who I had been searching for my entire life but I still didn’t know if he was actually in the physical world. Then, another curveball from the universe and I fell down the rabbit hold of K-Pop. Somehow that led to me watching a music competition show and there he was – the man I had dreamt of four months before.

Even in Twin Flames and False Flames, what I had learnt in that short space of time was simply the beginning. I’d written that “it’s highly likely that someone will come across the false flame long before finding the true twin flame as, like with soul mates, the false flame will teach you a great deal about yourself. Your fears, your flaws, and all the things you dislike about yourself, or try to ignore.”

When I wrote that, I hadn’t anticipated what was to come next. It is most definitely true that some, if not all, twin flames, will have a false flame encounter first to prepare them for their twin flame. If not my false flame and the experiences I had from that connection, I would never have coped with what my twin flame brought in.

Intense telepathy, lucid dreams, spontaneous astral projection to him, expanding psychic abilities, and so much more. Then there was also the extreme dark nights of the soul – yes, plural – that took me so far from who I used to be.

I also wrote that “[a] twin flame is that person that when you meet them and catch their gaze, you realise you’re looking at someone who’s soul mirrors your own. The world falls away and time stops. Nothing else matters but the bond between yourself and this stranger who has your heart racing and pulsing as an overwhelming force of magnetisms tugs at your essence, pulling you closer to this new person.”

Damn. The me then had no idea what she was in for one year later having found myself travelling 9000 miles from home and briefly crossing paths with him. Ironically, I struggled to find the words to describe how it had felt after that moment – even though I had written it before it happened.

In reality, there’s too much with my twin flame experience to condense into one succinct blog post. Even briefly broaching the subject led to me writing a memoir about my twin flame experience [If You Want To Know…Just Ask! available here], creating music from poems about it, and to starting a new series Entangled by Fate: Twin Flame Talk [coming soon] on my YouTube channel. Who knows what might come next?

All I know is I am excited to graduate from my university course later this year and dive totally into the next book of my life – and see where the journey with my twin flame takes me, and get back to writing here too. In the meantime, feel free to check out content on my YouTube channel: @LJBremer233 .

Original article: Twin Flame [update].

I’m currently in my final year of my creative writing MA course and just taken a month off from my studies to recover from the last few years. Finally, I’m starting to feel some semblance of being human again.

So what happened? The workload of work required for my studies doubled in my second year. In short, that meant my lower-than-average energy with ME/CFS was totally consumed by my studies. I was also diagnosed with POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) around the same time, as well as informally diagnosed with AutiADHD through the university. I also had the “joys” of covid and now long covid.

Toward the end of my BA course, I lost my mother; and last year I lost my father too. They were my reason to live, so trying to exist in the world without them has been unbearably hard. I kept on with my studies as it was the only thing I had to focus on and to keep me going. The world without my parents still doesn’t make sense and it feels like the grief of losing them both and losing them so close together will never expire. I don’t think there’s an equivlent comparison for how dark and bleak my state of mind has been the last few years. There are days I’m not sure how I’m still here.

For the last year, I’ve been exiting in survival mode and just getting by each day. Fortunately I have the entire academic year to do my dissertation which hopefully, my mind will allow me to continue with now that I’ve given myself some respite.

So that’s the worst of things…pretty much.
It hasn’t all been bad!

I passed my BA course and have self-published my creative pieces submitted for both BA and first year of MA (The Demon of Munbigye: Prequel Stories and Horologically Displaced).

During the first year of my BA course, I had an interesting twist of fate and found out the identity of my twin flame. That became the inspiration for much of my creative writing at university, got me into writing poetry (definitely never saw that one coming), and ultimately, led to me writing out a memoir on my twin flame experiences (If You Want To Know…Just Ask!) with more to come in the future.

Both my university research and my twin flame connection led me to South Korea twice during my time at univeristy – guided by a roof tile that started this crazy life path in 2021. Both times going out there were the most challenging and most rewarding times of my life. It makes little sense…but I never felt “home” until I was there. Me, a country girl that always chose the most rural places to escape to was thriving and loving every moment in Seoul. My heart and soul have been aching ever since leaving. I hope one day I can find my way back. I miss Seoul and South Korea every day. Whether it’s an unexplainable soul connection to the land or because that’s where my twin flame lives – or a blend of both – who knows. I just know that if I think about my time their for too long, I can’t help but cry and pine for that place.

Outside of my life as a student and unable to afford advertising, being lousy with social media marketing (yay, anxiety and zero popularity ranking), and the ongoing mission to promote myself in some way also led to me putting my YouTube channel to work. I’ve recently started doing poetry videos for now, and I hope to start doing videos on twin flames soon. That is as soon as I have the complete first draft of my dissertation in hand at least…though, may also be after I have finished my MA. Me and my dissertion aren’t compatible at the moment.

Starting a YouTube channel is something I have wanted to do since YouTube first began – I just didn’t know what I wanted to do with it. Also, I didn’t want to have to do it alone. There’s so much of my life lived, experienced, and done in isolation, that thinking of starting anything new alone exacerbates my depression. Also with my anxiety, it’s a terrifying thing. I think I am only able to do it now as I’ve hit an age checkpoint in my life where I think a lot of fears and concerns have been outweighed by the fact of my life trickling away and the main thought: “so what?”

Also…whatever the heck is going on with my twin flame journey has made a difference to my ability to overcome fears and obstacles. It’s an unconventional experience I have with my twin flame. What we have is more energetic and psychic – we’ve never spoken or even met. He lives 9000 miles away. If not for the fact I had two years of mind-blowing experiences that were validated through the wonders of the internet, I’d have discounted it and let the madness exist inside of me without expressing it. I only know of two others with a similar connection to what I have, and that somehow makes me more determined to make sense of the experiences I’ve had throughout my entire life – and to provide an unconventional and alternative perspective on twin flames.

Even as I had tried to run away from the connection or ignore it for much of my life, going to university spun me even closer to the connection whether I wanted it or not. Turns out, making sense of twin flames has been my life’s ambition even without knowing it. It’s why all my stories have parallels with twin flames. Still…even though I have my experiences, trying to find a way to create videos that are something that would have an audience without repeating what many others do is challenging. So, it’s something I’m diligently planning out before I get started.

Writing If You Want To Know…Just Ask! was my way of finding my way out of grief and heartbreak of losing my mother, I ended up down a creative rabbit hole recently when the grief of losing my father finally caught up to me. Kokuhaku was the outcome of that dark place: an album with songs adapted from poetry published in If You Want To Know…Just Ask! which is now out.

While I don’t know what my future has in store…I do know I’ll be writing my way through it. Writing is the only thing that makes sense and the only thing that keeps me sane and living.

Original article: Life Update 2025.

Original article: Horologically Displaced.

The Demon of Munbigye: Prequel Stories is available to buy here.

Original article: The Demon of Munbigye: Prequel Stories.